I love a good meme. Sometimes at night, when I can’t sleep, I surf through google images for memes to get a good laugh at. I’ve noticed that they are always funnier when you can relate to them.
This one got me. It is ringing true even more now while I sit with a bacon mcgriddle slowly digesting at the pit of my stomach. I knew I shouldn’t have done it, but I was too lazy to put something healthier together at home. So now, I am paying the price of eating something that was unhealthy for my body and my soul. Instead of thinking how productive I can be today, I just want to lay on the floor with Tums and sparkling water. Even though I ate it for breakfast, I know I will spend the whole day digesting it.
I’ve tried for months to change my eating habits, I’ve thought about and tried becoming vegetarian and I’ve tried to incorporate vegan meals into my lifestyle. But because I have not taken the opportunity to figure out the best way to feed my body, I do things like this. I want to learn how to cook, but at the same time I don’t…I’m too lazy. So when I have moments where I noticed that my body has been deprived of something green, I tend to buy it on the fly. I’ll run to the grocery store near my job and buy a bag of kale, some type of fruit, and maybe, if I’m feeling fancy, some pistachios. I never have a plan. I just grab whatever seems right on my one hour lunch break.
I was convicted about my eating habits sometime ago when it comes to spiritual wellbeing. It’s hard to serve God completely when I am tired from the foods that I have allowed to enter my body. I still think that I am slowly coming to terms with the fact that food can indeed impact my energy levels. I want to attack that this year. I have this fear that I will begin a new initiative to change my eating habits only to fail.
I fail a lot.
Or maybe I just quit.
It’s the detox that scares me and the cravings that tempt me.
I don’t want to sit here as a single christian girl believing that this is life, while knowing that God could have so much more for me if I just got my butt out of bed and began a healthier lifestyle.
I also don’t want to be that mother that only gives her husband and children junky, fast and greasy, fried meals.
I will have to continue this journey of healthier eating on the blog. I won’t be able to conquer this in one post and thought. I think I will make this a series. A place to hold me accountable in this journey into a healthier life.