God Is The Plug

Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you.”

                                                      James 4:8

Hallways seem longer when all the doors are bolted shut.

That job that I so desperately knew was mine a few months ago was in fact not. The day after I posted the blog “In The Hallway” I received a notice that I would not be moving forward in the application process. I’d like to say that it had no effect on me at all, but that would be a lie. How could something so perfectly timed out and articulated not be from God? Had I heard the signs wrong? I was lost, a little broken, and really confused. I thought I had this figured out.

But as it turned out, I didn’t. And I have a sneaky suspicion that the sooner I understand that I will never have it figure out, the more God will be able to do with me. I got the news on the day before I was supposed to leave for Vegas with family. It had taken me a day or so but I was learning to let it go. The job just wasn’t for me. I started to enjoy my trip while loosening my grip on the desire that I had fed for a month to fly out to Dallas and begin a new life. My mother was even looking at apartments. Nonetheless, I had to let it go (yes, in my “Frozen” voice). After all, I was beginning to get used to rejection.

On the very last day of the trip, God gave me a very physical reminder of where my focus needed to be for my job search. I have a cousin who designs shirts. She takes t-shirts and brands them with phrases and logos, and she had been given the duty to craft t-shirts for the entire family for the holiday weekend. She did her duty and I though that was the end of it.  But on the day that everyone was set to say their goodbyes, my cousin came into my hotel room with a specialized t-shirt just for me. She hadn’t known my desire for this job in Texas, she hadn’t even known about my job search in general. So when I  unfolded the shirt to read the words “God Is The Plug” I knew  that could only be a wink from God. A clear sign that He sees me, and knows my heart. It became clear where God was directing me in order to fall in line with where he wanted me to go in my job search. He wanted me to go straight to Him.

Even now, a month later, I still struggle with turning my search over to Him completely. but I think I am getting there. I am sprinting past the lie that Satan wants me to believe. That the shirt that I received was just a “coincidence”. It didn’t mean anything, just like my belief in that job in Texas. But I can’t believe that. Even though my decision to not believe in coincidences has led me to some deep moments of sadness, It is also my belief that even in those moments of confusion and misdirection, God is still talking to me, testing me, guiding me. However, if I want to reach the level of clarity in which I am sure of what steps to take for my future jobs, my future husband and any other decisions that I will have to make in life I will have to plug in to Him. Only then will I receive the power that I need to do what I was built to do.

Enough

After my digestive fiasco with McDonalds on Saturday, I knew I needed a change. So today, I decided to be intentional about my move towards a healthier lifestyle. I began the day with a carrot, apple and celery juice from a small, but popular,  little juice bar near my job. I brought three 8 oz bottles of water from my home and a couple of selections of fruit. Although I did have a slight setback with a leftover latte from Starbuck, I passed up the opportunity to receive a fresh refill and went straight to the juice joint.

These juice meals always scare me. Will I be starving 30 minutes into work? Will I pass out from fatigue and hunger? Will this juice be…enough?

Enough.

I think that was my main struggle. How can a 24 oz cup of juice and a couple of  8 oz bottles of water be enough to sustain me unto lunch?  When you are use to the salty warmth of a breakfast sandwich, or the fullness that a donut with the right amount of sweet can provide, how can something as simple as juice be enough?

I was hit with a tad bit more than just a juice cleanse today.

I began to have some interesting thoughts on the meaning of contentment. While my body was saying, “Yes, this juice is beyond enough”, my mind was telling me I was crazy.

“Don’t you want chips?”

“Don’t you want a Mexican pizza for lunch?”

“Are you sure you don’t want Subway?”

It was a battle.

I actually hadn’t made up my mind on what I was having for lunch until I pulled my car into the shopping center where the juice bar was located. I walked to the Stater Bros. near by and grabbed some tangerines, one avocado and chili pepper. I had decided that these would be the only solids that I consumed for my lunch break. I walked into the juice bar and happily ordered the carrot, parley and spinach combo juice. Don’t forget the water.

Once I got it. I felt inspired. I wanted to post it to Instagram but I wanted to ensure that I left a message that truly represented what I had learned about being content in just the first few hours of the day.

I’m not going to say that I have mastered the ins and outs of contentment based off of two liquid meals. But this did get me thinking. How does one stay satisfied with their physical “Enough” when their mind and the world around them is screaming for something more.

Its funny how God has lessons hidden behind other lessons.

 

Stay nourished,

Whit

Book Review-“The Purpose Room”

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I just completed Heather Lindsey’s The Purpose Room. I bought it on a whim one day during my rest break at work. I guess you can say my job inspires me to find my true purpose.

I’m still hoping its something far, far away from my cubical.

Nevertheless, I purchased the book in hopes that it would allow me to understand my purpose and found that it offered a lot of great insight.

“You cannot Continue in your past, or current, sin and expect to see your purpose tomorrow.” -Heather Lindsey,  The Purpose Room

Boom.

That quote from the book really hit me. I feel as if I have been praying for God to reveal my purpose for at least a year, yet I still sit here weary. However, throughout that time of praying for it I was lazy in my work life, my spiritual life, and my social life. How can I expect God to reveal my purpose to me when I have just hit my 5th day in a row of watching non-stop television in my free time? How can I expect for Him to reveal His big picture for my purpose, when I am performing so poorly in the small picture He is providing for me right now?

That quote alone would take you to a whole knew world. Still, there were several others that would inspire the reader to find what is specifically in their lives that is keeping them from finding and living in their purpose.

Is it fear?

Disobedience?

Laziness?

or  have you been contaminated with the things of this world?

There is so much more I can say about this book, but it’s Sunday night, at 11:18pm, I’m kind of tired, and I don’t want to give myself an excuse not to post. I think I will take some notes, so that I can jot down some of the most significant points that she made and how I plan to incorporate it into my life this year.

Overall, it was a great and quick read. I would suggest it for any girl looking to be used by God through her purpose.

Live purposefully,

Whit